Silence

This evening I found myself yearning to be anywhere but inside the house. Emotions were high and I couldn't stand to be around it. I needed to give it time. I didn't want to stick around to be sucked into the negativity. So I left. I put on my swim suit and dived into the pool. I swam laps until I could barely breathe. Then I stopped. I rolled onto my back and just floated there. My ears were under water, but my eyes were above the water. I could see the sky, the clouds, the setting sun, and the trees. The really nice thing was that I couldn't hear anything. Only the sound of my pounding heart in my ears. I just floated, motionless, watching the clouds, breathing deep soothing breaths, listening to the steady rhythm of my heart. Sometimes I forget how theraputic silence can be. Nothing to distract you but your own thoughts. I watched clouds move effortlessly across the blue sky thinking to myself, "There hasn't been a cloud in the sky for so long, I've forgotten how much I enjoy them." The fact I actually had the mental capacity to conjur that thought was amazing. I've spent so much of my time lately thinking of such emotional and deep material that I thought I'd lost the ability to have petty useless thoughts. All in all, I've found new reasons for getting myself in the pool.