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I swear when I set out to right this blog I actually had a topic, and purpose. Hell if I can remember. I suppose it had to do with feelings..It always has to do with feelings.

I hate feelings. Which brings me to some song lyrics.

"Feelings" Offspring
----well after reviewing the lyrics once again...ive realized that's not what i wanted. They were too full of hate for another person. I don't hate them, I hate my feelings. I wish I didn't have some of the one's I feel. They are suffocating me. Normally I wouldn't mind, normally my feelings are tolerable. It just seems that lately there are so many things I wish weren't so. My emotions inhibit me from feeling for others. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to or not. I try. Nothing. Maybe I'm meant to not be able to brush these feelings off. Maybe I'm supposed to have them, they validate my fate. Maybe. I don't know. Shit.