Holy shit

Wow wow wow....I haven't posted in almost a month! I'm super sorry about that, some really emotional times reared their ugly heads. And to tell you the truth...Posting didn't feel like a comfort. It felt like a reminder. Actually, it's reminding me now of things I'd rather not think about. But, alas, maybe it's a good thing.

I know that the very last post I wrote was of happy feelings. Turns out those happy feelings were influenced by someone pretending everything was ok. While I understand the intent, and the idea that they really thought everything was going to be ok, I was very hurt by the deceit. Because, of course, everything was not ok. Infact, everything was very very bad.

On the bright side, from then until now things have improved imensely. I am happier, more motivated, and looking forward with optomism. Although I cannot predict how the future will turn out, I do know that it will be fine. Things happen for a reason. In the end, everything is meant to be. The hardest part are the fine lines. There are so many fine lines, too many that can be broken, bent, and crossed. It's always complicated. GOD how I HATE things being so complicated. I wish it wasn't, but it is. Shit.

Tomorrow's another day with more hope and more love to share.