To Pursue or Not Pursue

I am pursued. Yes I do believe I am. The hard part is...that I want others more :( I may have options, but they are not what I choose first. Humph. Its a little bit of an ironic situation, the girls I want don't seem to choose me first, and the girls that want me aren't my first choice. (well not all, but a few) Oy. Decisions decisions.

I'm starting to accept the loss of a few girls. I'm an no longer in the front of their minds, however they are in the front of mine. But I will live and let live. Let go. I can do that. I will do that.

Shake it off. You're ok.

Not Down

What the hell? I've said before and I will say it again... I hate assumptions. They are never any good.

I thought hard about posting this blog. I know they will read it...and I know they will probably be pissed. But wait...do I care? Not particularly. I'm done. I've moved on. Anything I've done for the past 3 or 4 months and will do from here on out, has absolutely nothing to do with them. My actions, my decisions, are my own, and are not based on anyone but ME.

I do not even think about you, or what you want. Because I do not care anymore. I am happy without you. I have a shitload of friends, people who care for me, people who will be there for me, people who I can talk to. People who, if there is a problem I can approach them and know they can approach me. I have girls that make me feel good, make me feel special, and I do the same for them. I am dating, flirting, and guess what? I'm good at it ;) Haha.

I am who I want to be. I say what I want, I am not ashamed or afraid. I spent 2 years saying things that didn't want to be heard. I'm telling you now, piss off. If you think that you did nothing to make me upset...you are playing me. I have self control, and I do not divulge everything that I know. And I do not divulge what I wanted to, because you are doing enough damage to yourself. I am bigger and better than you will ever be. I'm sorry.

Wanted

Ok so I've been seriously considering what I need in another relationship. Based on my one and only past relationship and some learning experience with my new indeavors, I have concluded some things that I NEED.

Someone open, who can tell me everything just as I confide everything in them.
Someone completely and totally out of the closest, no more avoiding the subject at work, or at school, or with your friends, or with family.
Someone who enjoys my friends.
Someone who doesn't get easily irritated.
Someone who will make time for me.
Someone who will make just as much effort as I make.
Someone who respects themselves.
Someone who can laugh at themself.
Someone who can stand up for themself.
Someone not afriad to be themselves, sexuality and all.
Someone who accepts me for me, every little piece.

I'm sure there is more. I will add more as I think of them.