Thanks

This has been quite an experience. I have done things I would of never done before. Things that my old self would of resisted. I am freer than I thought could be possible after such a devestating situation. So basically what I wanted to say is, thanks. By no means is what happened ok, but I do thank you. I am better, stronger, sexier, confident. I am not crazy as you once made me feel, I'm not some overly emotional wreck. I let go and I moved on. Yay for me. Thank you for an amazing summer.

I cannot

I've found some old urges, shadows of my former self. The former self that wanted to know too much, was inquisitive beyond normal. I'm over thinking and not relaxing. I need to just let it be, I'm single, they're single. Although they always seem to make me feel special, always make me feel like they really like me. But they talk of others, kisses others, not sure there is room for me. But they also need a friend...and I will be that friend.

I cannot go snooping (no matter how innocent it feels). I cannot think more into this than what is laid down before me. They like me that's all I need to know. If it goes beyond liking and flirting I shall deal with my emotions then. I must take what they say to me at face value, because there is no reason to mistrust other otherwise.

I like them, alot. But I will be patient, and I will wait.