Well for those of you who don't know, I recently found out my lovely ex-thing never loved me. Oh WAIT...correction...was never "in love" with me. Oh gee, that makes it sooo much better. Hooray for feeling like crap. Lucky for me, and lucky for her skinny, crazy, fucking INSANE ass I got over it in about 2 minutes. I don't love you anymore. I haven't for a long ass time. In fact I thought maybe we could be friends again! Guess not. Not that I would even WANT to after that shit. I am completely...flabbergasted (for lack of a better word). All I can do it widen my eyes, raise my eyebrows and shake my head. I can't even fathom how anyone could stay in a relationship for 2 years and 2 months and never have been "in love"! It's just ludicrous! I'm not sad about this anymore. I'm just livid. There is no way any sane person could do that. I've had some people tell me she is lying or she is just confused and doesn't know what she is talking about. Well thanks for the efforts at comforting me...but I doubt either is the case. I think she is being honest (for the first time in a LONG time). And unfortunately for me, it happens to be about me. Well you know what? I can handle this. This will not scar me. I am ready for love. I will not allow this crazy ass bitch to have any fucking influence on how I live and love. I am so strong and so confident that I have gotten past this.
You are in my dust. You cannot even imagine what sort of strength I have. I am loved, and will be loved until the end of time. I do not push people away (or shut them out to begin with)
. I embrace each day with optimism and strive to bring that optimism to others around me. Yes am I tooting my own horn. But GODDESS DAMNIT! I deserve to.
So in conclusion, you are FUCKED UP. I am more than ok and I am ready for something more fulfilling than you ever were.
