Yet again

Its about time, once again, to give up. I can't drop anymore hints, and be "topic dodged" again. I like them, they like me. Now what?

This is bullshit. I shouldn't have to deal with this.

I deserve that person who will take the steps with me. Instead of me taking the steps and pulling them forward. I want someone who will try as hard as I do to make something work.

Its a strange pattern that happens. I like a girl, get the balls to tell her, she likes me too, BUT doesn't want a relationship with me. Now what?!

On top of that, I don't wait for these girls, I still date (among other things), and I get flack for having a little fun, putting some new experiences under my belt. But I will NOT wait around while we "crush" on each other. I am a very monogamous person, I will be loyal to the end, but when something isn't going ANYWHERE, no one should expect me to stand still.

I want a relationship, its something I've come to realize in the past couple months. However, I'm not going to settle for just whoever is the first willing to be in a relationship with me.

I have no control of who I "like", I wish I did. Otherwise I would be getting crushes on those who get crushes on me.

Gah.