Pergatory

I'm in limbo. On many things, with a few people. For a while limbo was alright, it was acceptable, even preferrable. But now? I'm finding myself wanting those definite answers, something solid, something sure. Does she like me? Does she want me? Are we ready to do more than "let things be"? I know I am, but is she? How do I go about asking? If I ask will she pull away? Am I the only one she wants right now? Is she the only one I want right now? Can I afford to let myself only feel for this one girl? Or should I allow myself to feel for others, others who may be more obtainable? Others who already seem to like me? I've been single for a while, and I mean single single. No nothing. (get it?) Well the point is, I'm done being single single. I want to get something more, do something more. I have an idea of who, maybe more than one who. It will be a year in Feb. A whole freaking year. I'm sick of this. I have not really been living the "single" life. Or at least the fun single life. So many dead ends. Or just dead beats. Oy.

Well I got options. Time to hop on those options. Time to get the ball rolling. Get your shit together Brittany. Take a risk. Steal a kiss. See what happens.